The Night, The Stars, and The Moon

Listen, My Love Story

2012-01-27T22:35:00.001+08:00

oh baby
please come back
is never your fault
is my foolishness that masks my senses
is that the love is too bright it blinds me
you know in your heart,
no one else loves you the way I do
and no one else except you
that can carve a smile even on my darkest hour
I beg you, to return,
nothing else

Yes, I went to your place, I waited for you
even at your office, or even in front of his house
Looking from far, you are not even looking that happy
Would you please
Don't be angry over me again
I know, it's a wrongdoing
I wish it's a misunderstanding
Believe me, give me hope
And time to reverse the unhappy moments
Just a little more
Please, you are too over confident on me
I'm getting weak and fragile
and I don't think I can withstand even my weight anymore
So please baby

Day by Day
i count in my heart
how many love petals that have wiltered
just too afraid to look at the mirror
it's just myself, without you
i love you, that's all i can think of

Would you walk back into our house,
countless "I'm Sorry" I will say
with all I have
I will hold you in my arm
tight, for as long till death do us apart
I love you, what else you want me to say

I have did anything I could, I would and I should
yet my tears roll down, hoping you can wipe it once more
seeing you by his side,
Do you know, my heart is crushing to pieces
I cry, I yell, I throw, I kick
I drop down, holding back to myself
can't rationalise anything
I just want you
to come back to my life
to me

P.S
it's not really my love story.

written 20th-24th Jan 2011, Ipoh

Have always

2012-01-14T20:17:00.001+08:00

I have always thought
my comfort and care
will give you borderless paradise
i have always thought
i can give you happiness
With all my smiles
and undivided attention

always be by your side
taking the blames
for all his wrongdoings
they call me 'naive'
perhaps it's my willingness

i have always thought
time will change everything
for your love on him
to wilter some day
that you will realise someday
he is not worthy for you

day by day
your eyes seem to be watery and red
yet you forgive him
with your plain, sweet smile
perhaps you have already decided
on who you chose to remain with

i have always thought
i'm strong enough
to brace yet another disappointment
yet I hope
the next hope you are giving me
is not a heart-breaking one

I have always thought
my thoughts are true
instead
they are just really
baseless thoughts of mine

written 12/1/2012, Ipoh ..

Don't Really

2012-01-01T15:04:00.000+08:00

Yet another gloomy evening
Yet again, I'm standing in this living room
with the two unwashed cups,
and scattered pieces of plates
my heart is sinking
by just thinking of your whereabout

staring at the ticking clock
i wish i can move forward
but the clouds are just too heavy
and now how i wish
someone by my side
just to hold me strong

i don't really need you
to come back to me
it's just that
the loneliness is haunting me
and the seconds I'm awake from my dream
you are no longer by my side anymore

I don't really need you
to come back to me
it's just that
my eyes are irritated
by my flowing tears sometimes
as my path is no longer a sunny one

I don't really need you
to come back to me
it's just that
the room is full
with all those fond memories
And you have left me with nothing but all those
While I'm still unprepared

Without you, the taste of the rainwater
is too bitter,
without you, who else can teach me
how to be brave and bold
and without you, who else can teach me
how to love someone again

written on 26th Dec 2011, posted on new year

happy new year guys ! =)

Christmas Special

2011-12-25T10:15:00.001+08:00

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special
Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognize me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I Love You" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

Quoted directly from "Last Christmas" to remind us the legacy of that song..

Lastly Merry Christmas !

Please

2011-12-17T22:29:00.001+08:00

Promise me
To meet someone who loves you so much
One who looks at only you and needs only you
And they can’t go a day without you

Saying that
this moment is the last to you whom I loved so much
Even if you try to turn it back
Even if you hold onto me crying
I was the one who said no and bid our farewell

I always act strong
Hurting, you try to hold me back
But I’m a cowardly man
Didn’t have the confidence to protect you forever
to give happiness to anyone beside her
but instead left

Please
Don’t love someone like me again
Don’t miss someone the way u did to me again

Please
I can’t do anything but give you our farewell
Don’t cry in pain
Counting the time that’s passed
Even if we are ever to regret our breakup
Don’t miss a foolish love that’s already passed

Please
Meet someone who loves you so much
One who looks at only you and needs only you
They can’t go a day without you

I hope that you’ll be happy
Let’s never meet again

Edited from KRY's "Let's Not".. Retold and rewritten 17/12 iPoH

Finally able to love you

2011-12-10T11:15:00.000+08:00

most of us
too careless
most of us
tend to forget
and most of us thought
love is blind, pure from heart
no matter if it's my love
or the love of yours
love,
no matter how,
when it's here
you need to prepare for it

they say
it's painful to love
they say
you will get lost in love
and they say
it's hard to prove the love is true
no matter if it's my happiness
or the happiness of yours
love
no matter how,
is beautiful in the heart

Oh,
I’ve heard so many “Nothing lasts forever” promises
Yet i have no other regrets
Just how many fairy tales are there in real life?
Yet I have you, my best friend
By my side through the seasons
I can’t ask for anything more

yet I'm here
waiting for you, to walk down the aisle
you are beautiful in the white gown
loving the only you
being happy, or with sorrow heartache
Let it be natural
Because the one I love is only you
I’m a new person
And through this, I’m
finally, finally
finally able to love you

Edited from 好不容易, re-written 1116am Ipoh 10/12

[RP] I have a Lover

2011-12-07T12:17:00.002+08:00

You ask me
"Are you still alone?"
And i just laughed
I am loving someone
I have someone to love
You seem to worry about me
Telling me there is someone
that you would like me to see
I do also have a great lover?
Someone that i cherish so much that i had to hide

That someone, only i can see her
She is only visible in my eyes
I will keep her lips locked with mine forever
Only that tears that fill my eyes know
That person is you

I don't want to have her
I don't want to be greedy
I just want to love her
I do also have a great lover?
Someone that I cherish so much I had to hid

That someone, only i can see her
She is only visible in my eyes
I will keep her lips locked with mine forever
Only that tears that fill my eyes know
That person is you

Can you see
I am not alone
So don't worry about me so much
I will introduce her to you someday
Can you hear my tears filled up in my eyes say?
That person is you

SJKRY-EDITED-REPOST
7/12/11 Ipoh

So just love me

2011-11-24T23:37:00.002+08:00

dearest
can i hug you just for a second
the heart of mine
really can't beat without you
if i'm given chance to meet you
i will give up everything

i want to hold your hands
till the very last breath of mine
i'm willing to trade my whole life
just to wait for you to reply my love
if i have everything in this world
i just want to be with you
by your side
so just love me

my loved one
can i just hug you just for a second
and for this life
is just too short
for me to pour all my love
to you
but it's enough
if you just love me

the words before down the aisle, 1145pm Ipoh

Turn on the radio

2011-10-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

turn on the radio
Turn off the lights you know
listen carefully
for whose heart is aching now
and the weeping noise
that breaks the silence in my heart

turn on the favourite song
Turn off what I did wrong
listen carefully
of the tunes playing on the blue radio
and sing along with a smile
no matter how fragile your heart is now

turn off the cellphone
don't want to see the same old texts again
for that it reminds nothing
but sorrowful hopes
turn away the clock
just like it's nothing wrong
if the time understands me
could it tell me
tell me on behalf of her
the truthful answer
in her very heart
of the question that plays my emotions along

"do you ever love me?
for all these years,
or ever think about me?
or ever that crosses your mind
for the moment you just can't describe
that shakes your heart?"

or
dear clock and she,
do you regret
of loving me all this while?

do you or don't you?

fast written at 2320 for 10 mins, Ipoh 31/10

PS. HAPPY NOVEMBER

Forever

2011-10-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

i love you
not just for the face
that makes my heart skips a beat
and tomorrow i'll fall for you
once more
for the way you look at me
that puts a tornado in my heart

with you
i just can't sit still
i get jealous with the air
for sharing the same space with your breath
because of you
i can see the word "forever"
before I can see my innerself
and for that i realise,
I have to appreciate upcoming days
just to protect you

you told me
to love you
yes it is hard and painful,
but in loving you
is not a choice,
but a natural decision, from my heart

is there
forever love?
i just want to use
the rest of my life to love you
and from now on
you are my everything
and the sole reason for my happiness

your beautiful eyes
your soothing voice
my smile is the best prove for my love
so would you let me say it twice again
that "i love you forever"
and for forever and ever
I will still say

blindly written 24/10 ipoh

A simple sonnet

2011-10-18T21:08:00.003+08:00

This is a little love poem
a little poem that i wrote for you
over memories and sleepless nights
desciribng how happpy I am
with your companionship around
as the atmosphere around is something else, it's sweet

this is a simple love poem
containing hundreds of poems in our heart
i think
i'm over the moon now
the clouds, not beyond my touch anymore
as i'm floating in the air
with the way you are holding my hands

You must know,
Even the building comes trembling to us
Or the water waves rushing towards us
i will steadily
give you the warmest hug ever
protecting you, and wiping your fear away

And you will know
Even the earth is assaulted by aliens
I will not let go of your hands
Let the world rips us apart
And I will still sit down on this very desk,
embedding our loves, into endless poems
to the one
I knew,that I needed always

Written, and published 2112 18/10 Ipoh

I hate this love song

2011-10-07T20:56:00.001+08:00

remember?
the day
on the hill that we climbed
we stopped by the tree
and your head is lying on top of my thigh

we swore by the blowing wind
that we shall bury our hearts
on the hole that we dug
that even we are far away from each other
our hearts will be together, still

oh, i hate that love song
the song that is broadcasted on the radio
the song that he wrote
the song that he sang to his loved one

oh, i hate this love song
the song that i wrote with my tears
the song that put my love pieces together
and the love song
that reminds me of our love

i stand by the tree
i try to feel your presence
but to no avail
you are not here with me
searching you beneath the tall grasses
oh i hate this love song
you taught me what is love
and you left without saying a word

please, don't leave me with fond memories
as flowers are short lived
but they are appreciated throughtout their life span
the love should be like this
but I'm greedy
I want your love and you
near me and near my heart
forever and as long as the love song plays

Written 7Oct 9pm Ipoh

R.I.P Steve Jobs

2011-10-06T23:25:00.004+08:00

Well, first is MJ.. now we are facing another worldwide grief by accepting the fate that Steve is no longer with us..

Visionary leader you are, eventhough I do not own any of your items now, I still thankful for what you have done to change the world..

Rest in peace.

P.S

the next title will be posted soon and the heading spells "I hate this love song"

The one i love

2011-09-22T20:46:00.002+08:00

I thought
I will break down and cry
But i didn't
The moment when
I'm seeing you with another person
The separation is not a pain to my heart
But rather a slap
A slap that awakes me
to see you, the real you

Ah, the love
is finally over
Ah, too bad my heart is already torn up
All the love that i poured, blindly
Is lying on the floor, unappreciated,
They say,
if you are willing to sacrifice
With a pure heart, for you loved one
Then you will feel satisfied

Then Why,
The now me feel so bad
You are my everything
Until now, the path that i haven taken
contains so much of loneliness and sorrow

What a sad ending
You are nothing but my everything
If you can let go our love
And to live a new life,
And to chase a new love
Then why
I'm still being chained
with a broken heart ?

Perhaps the love lies
That reminds me
I shouldn't be hurt
By it anymore

Ipoh 845pm 22/9

"A long screed" aka " Would you marry me? "

2011-09-17T21:50:00.002+08:00

Day by day
We tell stories to each others
Stories that burst us into laughters
Sad stories that make us into tears
And sometimes,
stories that put us into fierce arguments
We may go cold on each other
But at all the days
When the clock ticks to 12
I call, and I will whisper to her ears,
"Today, I just made a wish to the God in the early morning,
That the first person I want her to be fine and happy is you.
The person who makes you happy may not be me.
But as long as you are fine,
I will be too"

And I continue
"So before I sleep, the last person I want to say good night,
Is to you, no matter what happens tomorrow and so on,
I have fallen for you today, again.
And I will cherish it."

Hey sweet girl,
So one night, I run down to your house,
knocking the door
I smile, and later giggling quietly
and you appeared, asking "It's 2 in the morning. What is the matter?"
and i give her yet another smile, a wider one
So i took her out away from the gloomy porch
away from the flaming candlelight
into a wider area, a known area to us

Just you and me,
and yes you and I, standing speechless
Eyeballs are locked to each other
she trembles abit
So the coat of mine is now on her shoulder
With her head leaning towards mine
I ask, "Do you know where is this place?"
"Of course, it's the place where you first called me out"

I try to reach for her fingers,
Holding her hands, facing each other,
Interlocking my fingers with hers
I ask
" Girl, you are my everything, Would you,
Would you marry me?

And hence,
Would you marry me?
The day I saw you on the street
A life turning point
I am no longer being alone
And if you leave me now,
You will take away the biggest part of me,

And I swear
Under the moonlight
Encapsulated by the glowing bright clouds
The stars shall be our witnesses,
To our true and pure love.
Even if the world is against you
To me,
You are the one
Who I shall love
Who I may live another day just for her
and who
that will make me, happy and sad

And i shall stand with you
holding your hands
during the hard and cold days
And slowly,
i put a ring to her finger
And I say,
" Girl, this ring is the prove of my love, to you.
I'm lucky to meet and know you here.
So, I hope, everyday, now and then
Till the day we grow old
I can still say
I love you
At this place.

So girl, marry me"

Written 952pm Ipoh

Of secrets and Love Song

2011-09-05T21:54:00.001+08:00

Secret
It's our secret
Secret about the first word
That you said to me
Secret about the first place
That we went for our first date
Secret about the first kiss
that you put on my lips
While I'm looking away.

Secret that is too sweet to be written as poem
Too bitter to be composed into essay
Too salty just by keeping in memory
And that is too sour to just let it fade away
from our memories

So will you let me
write you a love song now
A song that is, you and me
You may not like the confessions in it
But do just enjoy the music

I would not let the love song goes unnoticed
As for i will Keep it in the compact disc
Play it to you every day
And sing it to you every night

A love song, which is simple,
That everyone can sing
Rather than preserving a beauty in the form of sonnet
While our love stays lively and loud
Just like in the song
Even if we are already away from the earth

So, will you let me now
write you a love song
For that my heart is spilling love and emotions
Love song that reminds me
How much i am in love with you
Even if the song is done and already played,
My love towards you
is still always that full
in my heart

composed in 10 mins, 845pm 5/9/11

HAVING A COKE WITH YOU

2011-08-17T12:53:00.001+08:00

is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I'm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o'clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles

and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them

I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it's in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven't gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn't pick the rider as carefully
as the horse

it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

—Frank O'Hara

Try Just Try

2011-08-06T21:18:00.000+08:00

try to listen
try will you just try
be quiet will you
i just want to say the words of my heart
but have you ever noticed that?

all the while
i'm always the one who are listening
because i just want you to be happy

try to see
try will you just try
stare into my eyes
and when you are quietly staring
do you feel the needs in me
to express my inner pain out to you

and all the while
when you need someone,
i have always been there
because i just want you to be happy

but actually
who am i to you?
maybe i'm just like one of them
that you have used to do the same
and when
you have no one to play
you are returning back to my side
that's me to you

blame on me
for that i have never written my heart down to you
even i have already tried my best
forgive me
for that i will never require you
to hear
or to stare into my eyes anymore
never again

written at Ipoh 6/8/11

Father, Mother (200th post special)

2011-07-17T00:55:00.002+08:00

a lot of memories
of me growing up
and of course,
in the dark
there are always the two of you
two important persons in my life
healthy, the normal me now
thanks to your nitey songs
that you sang
to keep us asleep

all the troubles in the world,
as you know it
yet,
father, mother
with sweats and tears
had built us a home
stocked us with comfort
and with love
and the me, with a little failure
is nothing to be compared to that

do give me
yes, perhaps a much longer time
for me to prove you i have grown up
do forgive me
if the first fence i painted
is not that good looking
somehow,
if i'm not in home with you,
or if i worked for too long,
yet the moment that i received your call
reminding me to take care of myself
is the moment my tears drop
and all of sudden,
my day is brighten up again

please
do remember
go back home
a simple thing
brings a lot of meanings
you can just simply
speak few words with them
or just be around with them
father and mother
you just can't return to them what they have already gave
so before its too late
appreciate them

my dear father and mother
i know i can't pay the love that you gave
even with the rest of life
but only if i could
i will build a time machine
just to go back and tell
how much i love you both

UTP 1255am 17th July 11

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happy 200th post to myself =))

Hey guys

As you can see, the message in the poem is clear... do not ever forget where you are from.. appreciate your parents while you still can... no matter how fussy, how stubborn or how noisy they are, look at yourself in the mirror.. you are what you are, because of them, so act up

I believe

2011-07-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
we understand that friends change.

I Believe...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over
the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words.. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
we do, no matter how we feel..

I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you
when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe....
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others..
sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
thing and see something totally different.

I Believe....
That your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

Sorry Sorry Answer Super Junior

2011-07-01T18:07:00.001+08:00

English Translation:

I want you like crazy
I can’t go a day without you, oh baby
I hold you in my arms
My heart still beats for that love
I’m suffocating more and more
I think I’ll die like this
I want you, baby

You’re so, so beautiful
I’m entranced by your appearance
I’m entranced
I’m captured by your gaze
I can’t turn my head around either
I’m a fool

My heart feels like it will burst
When I hold onto your hand and we kiss
Only that girl can be my owner
I’m a slave for you

*Sorry sorry sorry sorry
I I I first
Fell for you you you
Fell fell fell baby

Shawty shawty shawty shawty
My eyes are blinded, blinded, blinded
My breath is stifled, stifled, stifled
I’m going crazy, crazy, baby (x2)

Nan nan nananana nanana
Nanan nanana nanan nananna (lalalala)
Nan nan nananana nanana
Nanan nanana nanannananna nananna

행복한 바보라도 된 기분 느낄 수 있겠니
날 가져도 넌 괜찮아
그대로 시간이 멈춰서 하나의 나이길 원해

You’re so, so beautiful
I’m entranced by your appearance
I’m entranced
I’m captured by your gaze
I can’t turn my head around either
I’m a fool

My heart feels like it will burst
When I hold onto your hand and we kiss
Only that girl can be my owner
I’m a slave for you

*Repeat

I can’t imagine losing you
A life I live without you
Living a life without you
널 처음처럼 바라보는 해바라기 boy

It’s as though you were sent to save me
A life where I could love was approved
I’m satisfied with just you
Finally you’re in my life

Sorry baby, sorry baby
For only loving you
Sorry, I’m really sorry
Shawty baby, shawty baby
I’m sorry for looking at you only
I guess I really can’t do anything about it

*Repeat

Realize the heat, the lie
Baby, give me can’t a lie
We don’t make a sound and we keep feeling this space
We feel the love syndrome that we’re falling deeply into
Let’s never change, let’s never break up
Let’s say we love each other more than ourselves
Even a hundred times, even ten thousand times on & on
Precious love

Nan nan nananana nanana
Nanan nanana nanan nananna (lalalala)
Nan nan nananana nanana
Nanan nanana nanannananna (lalalala)

credits: kimchi hana @ soompi

I do

2011-06-28T23:10:00.001+08:00

my memory
is filled with your smiles
that attractive
makes my heart stop pounding again, for a moment

you are faraway
in a place that I can't reach
I can't wait for these words of love to be said

For a long time you've been in my heart
Much time passes and still you're far away,
but I will stay alive for you

because
i do,
because i am in love with you
I still love you and now I'll confess that to you
i would love you forever
no, this is not a promise
but rather, a love contract
with no expiry date

written and done 1111pm UTP

Everything

2011-06-28T22:47:00.002+08:00

you are my everything
without you it's nothing
i want to give you everything
because i have nothing but only you

even i'm nothing
but i have everything when you are there
everything is not important
because nothing is more important than you

having you is nothing
but everything
having everything without you
is nothing

i spend my life here beside you in everything
because there is nothing left to be here on this earth today
there is nothing about you to be remembered
because i have everything about you in my mind

and from now starting from nothing
i will love you till everything from my heart
spills out
to exchange your love with mine together

everything is you and nothing is me without you

Republished 2248pm. original post 2009 UTP

love you 100 years

2011-06-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

we know
time changes everything,
and to love 100 years
is never an easy job
but i'm willing
to search within our embrace
forgive me
for being incapable of giving you
a more secure answer
but even the love disappears
with your sweet smile
it will rekindle everything back
what is going to be at future
no one knows
but the hand of yours
i will hold closely
Till we are grey and old

accompanying you
running through thick and thin bushes
happily together
even we're under hot and cold rainy days
live until 100 years
changes to roads and buildings are done
but our feelings will remain unshaken

accompanying me
through comfort and hardship
till the time reaches its end
love you 100 years
won't be scared
even the day when the Earth
stops rotating
because i will be still
loving the only you

written 25th June, 6pm Ipoh

The other winter night

2011-06-23T11:13:00.000+08:00

the very night
we met each other
in front of crowded place filled with fireworks
the other winter night
i walked alone,
i have nothing with me
opening my pair of palms
i can feel it's snowy
in despair
i wish to fly in front of your window
and meet you again

but let it be simple
in loving me
i am still myself
let it be simple
in missing me
i won't let it blown away by the wind
and be simple
in embracing me
it will be everlasting in my dreams
though you are not here
the story will be continued
in the night of my loneliness

written 12/5/10..

The Night 2.0

2011-06-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

out of the gloomy door
here i am
standing on soft soil
feel the breeze that touch my lips
try to trap it with my bare hands
the windy starry nite
a nite to be remembered
clouds dissembled itself beneath the dark
making ways for stars to shine
for the moon to glow
the moment of glimpse
brought indefinite words in my heart
as i walk a smaller step
timid as i always
wondering the limit of the sky
guessing and gasping the air at the same time
i am truly blessed
to live another day to see
another beautiful starry nite

written 1204am Ipoh

Love tree

2011-06-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

i don't want
the you beside me
looking at the blue plain sky
rather than staring at my eyes

i prefer you
the one who's quiet all the time
to fly happily,
searching for its happiness

the wind is blowing
the thunderstorm is coming
yet the loneliness is not carried away

love is bitter
when you realise you should let the one go
and while you are standing on the doorstep
waiting for the one to be back someday

my love is a tree
won't move even a bit
the leaves and shoots may leave my side
and the strong wind can be mean
don't worry
I can still stand strong

my life is a tree
shading your path from all the sufferings
and I won't disturb your
from sunrise till sunset
Securing your happiness and comfort from far
is the best i can do

13/6 UTP 1204am

getting late

2011-06-11T10:18:00.001+08:00

already getting used to eating alone
already getting used to travel alone
already getting used
in missing you quietly

thinking where you are now
thinking who you are thinking right now
thinking
whether my presence is still in your memory

forgetting about the past passion and love
forgetting the dropped tears
forgetting
every single memories that I shouldn't be keeping

it's getting late
i'm losing the warmth of your grasp
you say
you just want both of us to be happy
i say
without you by my side won't be a big deal
but now
i wonder why my heart is aching

it's getting late
i'm losing the smile on your face
i understand
a broken plate will not be a perfect plate anymore
if the flowing tears of mine now
can prove how much my love towards you
will I be given a chance to revert everything
or is it too late again?

already getting used in missing you
still thinking of you
but
it's still too late

written at 1030am 11/6

2011-06-11T00:02:00.001+08:00

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Optimism - 71.4% 2. Sense of Humor - 71.4% 3. Financial Situation - 69.2% 4. Kindness - 54.5%	1. Appearance - 77.8% 2. Shyness - 62.5% 3. Closed-Mindedness - 54.5%

Dating Strengths Explained
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Dating Weaknesses Explained
Appearance - Devoting a greater effort at making good first impressions is a must. Try to be fit and develop a style if you want to catch a girl's attention. Shyness - You know all too well the limits shyness places on you. Putting yourself out there in social situations may be difficult, but essential to your dating success. Closed-Mindedness - You are very fixed in your world-view, but if you open up a little you will see that people can hold different beliefs and still get along well.
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three o' clock

2011-06-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

oh,

the clock is ticking,

showing its three o'clock now

sitting on the floor

I'm staring at the uncollected bed sheet on the mattress

the very mattress that you once slept on it

lying on the sofa

are all the photo albums of us

wholly made with hearts by us

like a vase storing a growing little plant

but once it's broken

it's not even perfect even it's pasted back

the day you stormed out from the room till now

still contains the fragrance that you left behind

no matter how i clean the room

i can still see your smile at every corner

still in love with you

if there is a time machine

i won't allow you to step out from the very door

holding my painful spot on my head

i try to calm down

but i just can't stop imagining

how tomorrow would be

without you by my side

Neither I should speak such words again

Nor I should not listen to your thoughts

Yes the things you gave weighs too much

the foolish me only realising it now

For the me now

What is left behind

Are the painful memories

of the day when it was three o' clock

adapted from a song, modified and written 845pm UTP

Checkmate

2011-06-09T19:34:00.000+08:00

in front of you

listening to your confession

as if we are playing a chess game

and the last moving piece of yours

brought a checkmate to everything

telling a story to me

we suppose to be able to predict

the endings

but rather trying to squeeze my mind for it

i rather trying to bring back memories

but to no avail

you ink the ending words

today, you said the last words

every single teary word

i see, tonite

i won't be sleeping well

the truth which tells me that

everyday's conversation i won't be bothered to remember

and the truth that

for all the painful and cruel memories

i have been pondering about every single moment

the truth which stores

the loneliness in my heart

that I'm still missing you

and the truth that I have been missing so far

Is that I can't face the real me yet

i don't know how to stop loving you

as every single details of yours have weakened me

you, the one who cut it clean

and for me,

like a dog that is being ran over

left on the street

to die slowly

9/6/11 .. 735pm UTP

Bluish sky

2011-06-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

look, look at the sky

flock of birds

fading sunset

bluish sky

it's beautiful

i wish to fly with you now

for the air is too fresh

and too sweet to just to be on the ground

you snap my head

saying, how silly I am

you don't know, with you

every scene will be awesome looking

and yes

for everything we have seen and went through

it will be carved on the wall

of my heart and soul

so do let me know

the questions in your heart

so both of us

can quest for answers for every one of them

allow me

to accompany till the end of the show

for the happy ending would be ever lasting

we walk together

no matter how heavy

or how strong is the thunderstorm ahead

allow me

to accompnay till the very end of the world

i won't let go my hands

we will walk together

till we are grey and old

because love

is that beautiful

UTP, 10pm 8th June 11

Marry me

2011-06-03T23:28:00.002+08:00

Love oh baby my girl

You are my all

So beautifully radiant, my bride

A gift from God

Are you happy

Tears fall from your dark eyes

Until your dark hair turns white

My love, my girl

I’ll swear my love

Saying I love you

I want to do it every day for a lifetime

Would you marry me

Loving and cherishing you

I want to live this way

Every time you fall asleep

I want it to be in my arms

Would you marry me

Would you consent to this heart of mine

For a lifetime I’ll be by your side, I do

Loving you, I do

Cherishing you through the snow and rain, I do

I’ll protect you, My love

Her wearing a white dress

Me wearing a tuxedo

We walk, matching our pace

On the moon and star, I swear

I don’t like lies, I don’t like doubt

My loving princess

Stay with me

Even as we age

I want to go about it smiling

Would you marry me

Would you spend my days with me

Through hardships and difficulties, I do

I’ll always be there, I do

Through our many days together, I do

I’ll be thankful every day, My love

Accept this shining ring in my hand

That I’ve prepared from awhile back

With the same feelings today

I’ll remember the promise made right now

Would you marry me

For a lifetime I’ll be by your side, I do

Loving you, I do

Cherishing you through the snow and rain, I do

I’ll protect you, My love

I have nothing else to give you but love

That’s all, hardly valuable

Though I’m clumsy and am lacking

My love, my girl

I’ll protect you

Will you promise me just one thing

That no matter what happens

We will love each other

That’s it

Will you marry me, I do

Super Junior, Marry Me..

Beautiful, isn't it

You Taught Me

2011-06-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

I wanted a mansion once... that is until I met you,

Now the only place I want to live is inside your heart

I once desired diamonds... until I met you,

Now the only sparkle I need comes from within

I used to crave the finest clothing... until I met you,

Now I want not a single thread to separate our bodies

I once coveted a fancy car... until I met you,

Now I want nothing that would put miles between us

I once prayed for money... until I met you,

Now I want none of the things money can buy

I once yearned for a sense of security... until I met you,

Now my only security comes is knowing you are near

I once dreamt of a prestigious job... until I met you,

Now I find my success in knowing that you are happy

I once asked for the world on a silver platter... until I met you,

Now you are my world and I want for nothing but your touch

Loving you has been my teacher; you taught me not to want

Being with you has been my discovery; you are all that I need

Finding you has been my salvation, I now understand grateful

But perhaps of most importantly...

Your love in return has been my everything

- Teresa Weimer -

Grasshoppers

2011-05-29T22:14:00.002+08:00

from the mountain high

flowing down is the river of love

i know

i won't be alone anymore

staring at you, the one

sitting beside me

drawing a heart shape on a paper

with you around

i know my world would not be the same anymore

Like in fairytale

standing before happiness

are all the troubles

and you are the nearest angel around

with you and me

wrapping the last paper windmill

let us blow the wind of love

and the grasshoppers will sing for us

my day will be brighten up again

because of you

i love myself even more

even when my eyes are closed

i can still see you clearly

not letting you go away even a mile

holding you closely

in my tight cuddle

if the day when we are already old

i will still look forward the coming days with you

because of you

my life is filled with happiness

written 2214, 29th may UTP

Of the title and the blog

2011-05-16T12:49:00.002+08:00

Slowly i open the first step

The first step of my 64 steps

Out of my house

And towards total darkness

Wait,

It's not that dark

It's a starry starry night

Stars which are scattered apart

As marbles being poured on the floor

I try to find the big bright moon,

The big bright moon,

With the joyous moment of rabbit hopping around

The night breeze is here

Cold and chilling

Smooth annd draggy

My hair is in mess, as always

My shirt is patchy, highlighting the hard work of my life

Leaves are falling down

Strange in the middle of night

I suppose it tries to comfort me

Or rather accompanying me

And now

It's a bright bright night

A bright bright night

For my bright bright problems to be shipped away

And left is all my

relaxing and a positive mood ahead

to kick start my day ahead

and to fall asleep next on the comfy little grass

On the very night

With the stars

And the moon

As long as with you

2011-05-12T13:55:00.000+08:00

It's running late

I want to hold you tight

Closely will not let go

Even till your wrinkles appear

Until it's the real you

Until i can hear your heartbeat

As long as it's for you

i will do anything

Till i can't move any of my body parts

I still want to look at you

Till i can see the white hair of yours

I will still want to lock my eyes onto you

Till we lost in the time

Till we can't breath

Let both of us

Quietly

staring to each other

Not easy

We are together

I'm afraid the time goes too fast

That I missed even a single moment of about you

I'm afraid the time goes too slow

That I will miss you

Of every single moment without you

the world is collapsing

as long as you are still by my side

I will appreciate every last moment

coz with you

you completed the last piece of my life

I have to choose to forget the world

Still I'm not willing

To live without your presence

From the first word you spoke to me

It's already embedded in my heart forever and ever

Abstracted and simplified from a song 至少还有你

Written at 2pm UTP

It's gonna be

2011-05-10T01:52:00.003+08:00

Aimlessly running

chasing the flow of the wind

Releasing all my troubles along

Just want to save this moment

Every second, every frame of it

The air I'm inhaling

Mixing with the smell of the grass, fresh flowers

Feeling youthful again

I feel I have conquered the world

As it is no longer bounded by dissatisfactions

I once have the dream

But i have stopped chasing it

Coz it's already in front of my eyes

And in silence i will understand

That in the end,

I will eventually see your smile again

Believe that I'm your prince

Won't ever letting myself seeing you weeping your tears

So let me give you all the happiness

Believe that

We can be as cute, as old

And as loving tortoises of 100 years

The sun will never be lonely again

It's gonna be me to be your blue sky

It's gonna be you

Forget everything and run with me

It's gonna be me

Don't talk, just listen to my heart beat

Till night, staying in my embrace

Loving you is the most important

Just like a perfect fairytale

It's gonna be us

Without words

Holding your hand strongly

Just add me and you

and minus troubles

I just can't help

But you don't have to be wandering around again

So just quietly fall asleep

On my shoulder

written 745pm May9th UTP

The blossoming rose

2011-05-07T10:44:00.002+08:00

Maybe my shoes are not high enough

I'm here already

Yet the you cant even feel my presence

I'm just another passing stranger

Need no to introduce

But I can give you a hug

A longlasting hug

Sorrow or over the moon

Just enjoy the warm and gentle hug

The love is having its high fever

Blindly

I deny myself to find a cure

Not having the urge to be sad

Coz there will be someone like me out there

But I'm different

Coz I'm by your side

I'm not a tree

But day and night

I can give you a satisfying shady path

From the storm or the blazing Sun

I am who?

Even a flying butterfly won't look at

The singing bird

Will be giggling at my foolish thought

Everybody knows

It's not matching

To put a flower with a grass

Coz of that

Seeing a blossoming rose

My heart will just melt away

But the day

When I begin to wilt away

I hope the evergreen rose will finally

Notice the one

The un-important one

1045am UTP May07

You are still the best for me

2011-04-27T22:19:00.001+08:00

All the nags,

The complaints about activities,

Demands for changes,

persistent annoynance about my diet,

from the very first can of sixpack beer I opened,

You blame every single mistake I did on that

The faultfinding you,

We fight, refusal to tolerate

Wishing you will let me win even a fight

Tired, sitting on the torn sofa

Keeping our hands away that we used to hold together

Conquering the world with you

Eversince we were 6

Maybe we know each other too well

Blinded with ignorance

Unsure how to pour our love and energy

It turned out to be troubles

You were being the loudest

The egotic me

Problematic we felt

Months later, never realise

Leaving you

Was like fighting with my own fate

I never thought I will look back eventually

I can't find anyone who is better than you

I still remember

The words of my heart

Was you the first to discover it

Across the big sea of humans

I wish to carve a soul to understand me

And I wouldn't wish for anything in return

Nobody is better than you

Day and night

Staring at the clothes you left

Reading the old memos, memos that you sticked at the fridge

Rekindling the fond memories of us

While drinking a glass of lonely wine

In a big quiet house

You are still the best for me

Unsure where to start

I stay speechless

At your wedding altar

I could only smile

That i once loved you

Written and done 1021pm UTP

Kiss me by Sixpence None the Richer

2011-04-25T01:39:00.001+08:00

I demand you to hear this song immediately..

simple lyric and awesome music =)

................

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

[Chorus:]
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Too bad

2011-04-23T20:37:00.001+08:00

sitting in the mall

quickly i'm surrounded with sorrow

the pain i have endured since yesterday

i feel its like a year already

the deep hatred in you

melted and i'm missing you all of sudden

wanted to keep the lies away

yet i can't keep myself away from being lied

that being in love

i must be ready to bless your love too

i know being hurt will eventually become an experience

yet i dare not to look at mirror and swallow the reality

remembering how i used to change everything for you

yet i must have changed your heart at the process

thought of being with you

i lost in counting the days remaining

thinking tomorrow will be a brighter day

but I have to admit the Sun is taking too long to rise

dark and before you vanished at the corner

the tears have already filled my eyes

too bad

in the end, it's not you

the road is destined to be finished by myself

seems further than before

the one who i should thank is you

for holding my hands before

lifting my hand

i can still feel the warmth in it

but still i'm having the moment

that our heart is still locked to each other

i will have to try my best

to understand more about you

but you did left

perhaps to take a break or to sight-seeing

hoping to wait for another sun rise

and your face will again appear in front of me

written 837pm Ipoh

It's you

2011-04-21T01:36:00.001+08:00

you
you
it's you
still you
no matter how you tried to correct me
it's you
no matter how impossible it be
it's still you
now, will you tell me is it a love
that even when you left
i'm still thinking about you
stop playing with my heart already
i don't want to die so young
of having lovequake in my heart
stop right now there
eh, two hot ladies beside you
oh, it's still you

i fell down to the drain
coz it's you i can't get off my eyes from
i dismissed a fire alarm (i'm okay don't worry)
coz it's you i lost my hearing sense
can't you feel it right now?
i bet i have already
waved at you in my dream
oh, you are talking with him now
how about the poor me sitting opposite of you
separated by a busy road though
helplessly
i walk away

hey you
stop stop stop chasing my soul away
stop stop stop giving me the sweet look (it's so damn cute)
stop everything right now you are doing
and we shall kiss on the busy street
it's you
now i want drop down my knees
in front you
and to tell the whole world
the one that i love the most
is you

you
you
it's you
still you

written 138am, UTP

ETS

2011-04-19T02:45:00.001+08:00

summer leaves
winter breeze
concrete soil I'm stepping on
staying put behind the yellow line
wonder how heavy could my bag be
yet my tiring shoulder yells for help
Oh, here comes my train
bearing the words of ETS
i do know where this train will take me to
but i can't know for sure
that I'm about to meet her

Yes. It's a poem about her
A modern, well polished unknown female,
Who cares
I'm figuratively attracted to her
Wondering in my heart
Before this
Where have you been so far in my life

But in reality, I'm writing this for myself
The me who can only sit and ponder
For just that few seconds,
you have seized my whole attention
Can you see, I'm helplessly screaming for you
you are next to me, yet a mile away
Wanted to begin my speech to you with a simple "HI"
In the end
For two torrid hours
Intention stays as dream as courage is melted down
Just enough to lock myself onto the chair

Seeing you leaving
I can only watch from far
The empty seat you left from behind
Would never be the same
walking slowly away
You are drowned away in the crowd

It's too late
Who are you?
yet, priceless question
will i ever meet you again?

written for my friend, Jack based on true experience, 245am UTP

Dream

2011-04-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

in my dream
we are sharing a similar dream
this dream
forever stays in our mind
opening an umbrella
we walk together on a rainy street
quietly you hold my hand
for sure you have realized the words of my heart
in the corner
we stare and smile
as if we are running a telepathy test

i want to see you now
in front of your doorstep
courage exists only in a dream
to have a cup of tea
or doing something crazy together
would you brighten my day?

i wish to see you now
if only you agree with me
realising my love-long dream
embracing you, middle of busy street
who cares about others
with you, forever
in a sweet dream

written 1103pm UTP

Point of beginning

2011-04-16T11:52:00.000+08:00

the moment of embracing
my heart is aching
not dare to face the upcoming loneliness
the moment of walking away
my ears capture only the voice of sorrow
except being hurt at my heart
what else can i choose to feel
please
don't say sorry to me
and please
don't be surrounded by guilt
the now you, having the one by your side
so, do treat the one nicely

the day will arrive at last
marking i'll be officially missing you
physically absent from my side
i hate to count the windy cold days
before another summer arrives
but the me will still
choose to leave before the love extinguishes
i will nevertheless
forget all the responbilities that you have promised
erasing all our tapes of memories
for you to fill a new memory with the one

So, I don't want to see your love
beaten by time
already promised to be forever
let's not bid farewell even once
and don't let your love
laughed by eternity
for all the things
you two have been through

let's not
returning the point of beginning

modified from a song, 原点, written 1153am UTP

Too perfect (ver 2.0)

2011-04-12T17:32:00.001+08:00

tell me
come here
and tell me who am i
i lost so deep in my love burst
that i discovered you
coz you are the only reason
for my heart to blast
and continuously
you are disturbing my world
oh even the ice in my refrigerator
is melting with your hot presence
this is not right
a little bit more and it will crush
the time is not right
as I'm getting crazy again

my heart is slicing apart
can you see the two equal parts
just for you
A love shape i will carve in my heart
continue giving out smiles even to strangers
but wait
is it right to love you this way?
thinking about it so long
as my ice cream is melting away again
by your sudden appearance
oh stop it
everytime you left
my heart is pumping so hard
non-stop
without limitation
what's more when you are beside me?

oh too perfect
you are appearing at my sight again
oh my heart is too heavy
to let you go away from my side
your smile
your movements
your dimple
your internal beauty
your everything
from top to toe
I'm willing to surrender my soul
for it

written at UTP, 532PM

too perfect

2011-04-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

one step

two steps

flipping my hair

dancing on the street

seeing other lovers

being out of my mind is not good

but hey

where is my girl

the girl that will burst my heart

oh the girl that will make my glommy winter night to glow

but wait

too perfect

appear from nowhere

akin to angel dropping from the sky in front of my sight

just too perfect

makes me forgetting my own name

your sassy shadow

your sexy mouth

your seducing eyes

your straight hair

perfect from head to toe

Controlling myself from fainting

wish i can pause the time

to show you there is a quake in my heart now

just for you

i can continue bleed love for you

undecided it's correct or not to love your figure only

but who cares

too much radiation

shining me like the Sun

my heart keeps jumping

yelling me to love you

too perfect

in everything

for me to let go

written ipoh, 11pm

Because of you

2011-04-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

who

the one who halted my world

without any direction

forgetting what is sunset and sunrise

i saw myself in your eyes

even the world is collapsing

it will never shake us apart

you once said

we share the similar dream

waiting for the day for us to realise

i look up at the sky

pondering which star is the most beautiful

without realising

split second

your face appears right in front of me

lying on the grass

my imagination is full of your images

my piano melodies

are all about your little things

my diary

with every pages about you

realising

you are the half of my whole

hoping tomorrow

my day starts with you

this is my legacy

of love towards you

adapted poem, writen 6/4/2011, UTP

2011-03-29T11:20:00.000+08:00

Greetings readers,

I have to say, it's a long gap between my first post about myself with the latest post i posted few days ago.

And hence, I'm here with my first breakthrough.

Telling the tale of my life can be bored at the same time. Believing in impressing people, will not always be my first choice, unless I'm some sort of pop star or an internet sensation.

Blogspot has been a great place for me to post whatever that I felt. Blog to me, is never a diary. It's more to a place, a publishing site, a site where stories of everyone are shared, not a story of their daily life, more to story about life, about everything.

Here, I have little much to say as I'm not the noisy-type person.

Now, would you excuse me, I have to watch my cup before the ants come climbing up again.

Hope my throat will be better already.

Take care.

I'm fearful

2011-03-22T11:20:00.001+08:00

I'm fearful

You overestimate my true strength

And that you only know how to appreciate my intention

Words that restore my confidence

However

Nobody asks as I storm forward

I'm fearful

Your good feelings toward me are because of my manners

And that you only know to smile while I'm crying in pain

Actions that restore your confidence

However

Nobody asks me where i go to mend my wounds when i am lonely

Sometimes I do feel like an idol

Akin to a moon

Shining everyone in darkness

Soon, I hope to be as weak as a lover

Forget everything while leaning on your thigh

Crushing into vapours

Hinting we are just best friends

Without your permission

I have to continue loving

Under separate blessings

Feeling so mature

Masking my tears with beautiful smile

As if I'm drinking coldwater during snowfall

Showered by your praises

While by your side when you are sad

Much like an empty carriage accompanying the emperor

Without heading inside fortress

That we understand each other so much

Fated just to be brother and sister

Burying my love deep down

While staring at a soda that will never be opened

Written UTP, 22/3/11 1122am

It's now

2011-03-15T18:09:00.002+08:00

Yes.
It's now.
Hold my hands.
Tightly lets run towards the field
Embrace the wind.
Embrace the breeze.
Feel the grass.
Feel the bugs.
Don't postpone joy.
Coz we pretty unsure.
When we will be able to see other again.
Enjoy this moment.
Everlasting.
Right down.
My very.
Heart.

Random. UTP 610pm

Random evening

2011-03-14T23:03:00.001+08:00

To where should i start this poem

For the fish is too tasty

I can't remember how i was there at all

As I stepped out from the hut

The Sun strikes it rays down

Squeezing a lemon is what my eyes are trying to do

As i try to shade my roads ahead

People flock as if there is gold

Timid old man, yells and points towards a corner

Well furnished, a tidy painted shop

Sound of puppies squeak

Into my eardrum i heard a growling tiger

Petrified the poor young infant

A caring male parent

Quickly distracts the little one

To a silver plated hanging locked cage,

Containg a huge, tall parrot

Potraying a statue the bird may seems to be

Quiet, imitating a meditating monk

Its head is slanted, staring at a flying wild pigeon,

Slowly disappering from its sight,

Wondering how the other part of the world looks like

I decide to walk away

Loud taunting screams upset my intention

My eyes try to catch a glimpse

As a angry man with a thick moustache

Debating with the timid old man

With all his avail

He tries to chase the angry man away from his mini zoo

Puzzled, I whisper to a friendly spectator

The fair maiden explains

' He is a foreign worker. That's why "

Amazed, in slow pace, i walk away

Written at Ipoh 245pm 13th March 2011, posted at UTP 14th March 1107pm

Night and Day Man

2011-03-11T23:19:00.001+08:00

Tokyo or Alaska

Anywhere you like

I will construct the happiness path for you

Walking at the park

Searching for the music of the night

If you are tired

I am here to loosen up your high heels

Oh, it's blackout

And its snowy

Will still give you the Valentines' feeling

Glancing at you

Cute yet slowly holding the cup of hot chocolate

Carving in my heart

To give you all I could

So please let me

be your night and day man

24/7 won't head to sleep

carefully

observing the fever of love not to go down

don't care

how troublesome is the earth out there

quietly we will be hugging

Do let me

be your night and day man

Hope in the dark

You can still acquire a reason to smile

Even our love

will grow white hair

and wrinkle skin

But i still wish to promise you

The next me

Is still your night and day man

Ipoh 1120pm 11/3/11

My Only Love

2011-03-10T21:33:00.001+08:00

i can

i can see

the brightest star

through the reflection in your eyes

so beautiful

as your face pauses time

no, i don't need the whole world to stare at you

and yes babe

look at me just look at me

ill make you feel

I'm the only one for you

and yes

don't say a word

coz the wind says for me

i will be everywhere around you

four seasons, in and out

open the fan to feel me

head to the field to feel me

and yes babe

i'll be there for you

and always

what you what you are waiting for,

come and grab my hand

together we don't cross the road

instead we lie on the road

cars will stop pedestrians will cry

our love my promise your faith

would touch their heart

come together we sing it out loud

who needs music

when we can hear through our song of hearts

my only

my only love

Ipoh, 10/3/2011 936pm

Not, not anyone's fault

2011-03-09T23:51:00.001+08:00

shiny little diamond

couldn't beat your smile

thankfully

that sweet little ring

was finally worn by the finger

that will be always interlocked between mine

from that moment

i bet it will be the happiest of all

no, it's not.

flashing years, distanced apart

time changes, love fades,

tree grows, yet the leaves will dry

constanly replaced, can't help

but to bear the haunting

of our piling conflicts

try to save but not to my avail

tears dropped

yet its painfully healing

no, not anyone's fault

is me who decided to have my own freedom back

taking back with me all the spoken commitments

hoping you will keep

the loves and cares that i gave

i will go but promise me, you must live happily

i force myself not to look back

as long as you wil promise me to do so

ipoh 1152pm 9/3/11

I believe

2011-03-08T01:26:00.003+08:00

my eyes blinked

its the tears from the sky

from far

holding a pink umbrella

you are standing

waiting for someone

in my heart

i believe

you are waiting for me

the steps you left behind

i trail from behind slowly

becoz i believe

you wanted me to follow you

suddenly

you rush in nearing me

only to open your locker

though you look quiet in front of me

i believe

we had already finished a wonderful conversation

from far,

i believe

even its not my hand you are holding

i can feel your head is leaning towards my shoulder

even if the weather is icy cool

i can feel your warmth as a cup of hot coffee

in a snowy cable car

of us sitting together

slowy itching its way up to the joyful peak

Even im not sure what you are giggling about

i believe

You smile to encourage me

mixed with emotions

i believe

you will eventually notice me

and you will believe

i'll be the one for you for the rest of your life

Began 6th March 11, done 8th March 11, UTP v5E-314

Forever?

2011-03-05T01:54:00.001+08:00

when i was young
i sat in the room myself
staring at the swinging light bulb
the vibration on the floor
made me embracing my both legs
sitting on the chair
the door was left abit of gap in between
but i always hope its locked
coz i really don't want to hear my parents arguing

and then,
in front of the piano
i don't dare to write a song
a song about love
will love last?
or will it not?
the song might be a chart topping hitz
yet will the love be the heart breaking emotion at the end?

everybody wants to find a love
a love that will be forever
like meeting a prince/princess in the fairytale
and of course, it's named fairytale for a reason my dear.
love may last till the grave
but he/she might not be the one for you
love may not last that long
as it will extinguish in the process
though you might have thought he/she's the one the very moment you walked down the altar

but what i know
love is blind, emitting light like a fire
it hurts,
it makes you happy, warmth,
sometimes it causes extreme loneliness
and yet it keeps you busy as it needs fuel to be alive

but still
i believe
there is someone out there
someone is specially designated by God for everyone,
a destined, the chosen one,
maybe the fate couldn't bring us together,
but i do wish you the very best
and i will be very happy to know that you are smiling yet for another day

written at 1015pm, 4/3/11 UTP V5E-314

One pound

2011-03-04T20:47:00.002+08:00

my life is indeed abnormal
covered with yells tagged with paperworks
hey Mr Sun, after you departed
i have to squeeze
myself like a soft polystyrene
into the already tearing up little train

walking down
the damn old street
wondering how my life is going to end
and there she is
the Queen of Elizabeth
carved on the coin
lying on the floor
slowly i pick it up
and yards behind
a soft voice
wakes my entire world

oh baby baby baby baby
don't you look at me like that
my black frame glasses is going to scatter away
yes you
like a stray dog
snatched the bone of my heart miles away
the papers are flying away
yet your curly hair
makes me evolved into a laughing mannequin

"hey"
you say
"hey"
i reply, staring into her blue eyes
incomparable to other beautiful women i ever saw
yet it's indeed special to me
soothing the feeling, even the moonlight makes me hot

oh baby baby baby baby
i can drink up all the water in the world
i can paint a flag of you and plant it top of the Everest
and oh ya baby
you are the exception for everything

but'em but'em
your face shows it all to me
strangers we are
the hand of yours is forwarded to my palm
and the dirty little round one pound
vanishes into your pocket

suddenly my world expriences a night sunset
my eyes begged you not to leave
yet you smile and utter " thanks for picking it up "
powerless i am
i nod and charge ahead to my front
from far
i did look back
the shadow of a tall figure with a sling bag
forever only stays in my heart

written at 845pm, 4/3/11 UTP V5E-314

I have a lover

2011-01-21T17:24:00.002+08:00

Dreamy hero

2010-06-21T14:19:00.001+08:00

I don’t know where to go from here

or what to live for anymore

Like a fool, lost in a road all alone

The other day, I was wandering

strongly laughing like everything is alright

My heart is like an empty desert

People, and the world don’t believe

Because of a deep wound

I'm the hero of my life

I will rise up once again,

shining like a jewel in a dream.

Call me

I am a dreamy hero

Until the end, I will run through

now I am not afraid

with you here right by my side

Self-confidence is nothing but a lie,

no one knows about what my wounds are

So I have lived my life shut out,

like a foolish coward

I became my life’s hero

I will rise up once again,

shining like a jewel in a dream

Call me

I am a dreamy hero

now I am not afraid

with you here right by my side

All the sorrow I’ve had from you has left my heart rusted

But I shall heal your pain

I am the hero for tomorrow

Once again, power will pay off

holding my like a blinding light of hope

I am a dreamy hero

It is a rough world

But it is all bearable

when you are with me

Let's not run into each other

2010-05-08T23:58:00.001+08:00

Title: 마주치지 말자 (Let’s Not…) / Let’s Not Run Into Each Other (Let’s Not) / Let’s Never Meet Again (Let’s Not…)

From: “Sorry, Sorry” (3rd Album)

Saying that this moment is the last to you whom I loved so much

Even if you try to turn it back

Even if you hold onto me crying

I was the one who said no and bid our farewell

I always act strong

But I’m a cowardly man

Didn’t have the confidence to protect you forever and left

Don’t love someone like me again

Don’t make someone to miss again

One who looks at only you and needs only you

Meet someone who loves you so much

They can’t go a day without you

Please

Hurting, you try to hold me back

But I’m a cowardly man

Who doesn’t have the confidence to give happiness to anyone beside her

Don’t love someone like me again

Don’t make someone to miss again

One who looks at only you and needs only you

Meet someone who loves you so much

They can’t go a day without you

Even if we are ever to regret our breakup

I can’t do anything but give you our farewell

Don’t cry in pain

Counting the time that’s passed

Don’t miss a foolish love that’s already passed

One who looks at only you and needs only you

Meet someone who loves you so much

They can’t go a day without you

Please

I hope that you’ll be happy

Let’s never meet again

~Lyrics Credit: jpopasia.com

in HIS eyes

2010-04-27T23:45:00.003+08:00

why can't you love the way you are

the way I loved you as you are

don't put dirt behind your back

nor feel sorry for the things you lack

for I myself knows what's in your heart

so pick up the pieces torn apart

*gather around yourself with faith in your hands

never act according your own wit

for it might cause your own destruction

just follow my instruction, live right through

happy is the man who survive the waves

and softly brush through the shores

*if you could only learn to love yourself

life would be much easier despite the strife

gently wipe the tears from your eyes

for I will grant you everlasting life

in a place where you can never imagine

how beautiful you are in my eyes

** a meaningful poem from a website that caught my eyes... good to be read when you are at your lowest breaking point...

Have you heard yourself saying..

2010-04-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

The day has just began

in this crowded street

feels like I'm the only one

tongue-tied, hands clasp

bitter-sweet memory of me

slowly fading in the sun

thinking all the days gone by

time has left me hanging by

maybe tomorrow, maybe...

where are all the skies go?

I only got to see the shadows

maybe tomorrow, maybe...

Lust

2010-04-26T12:09:00.000+08:00

I envy because of the heart
I glutton because of the heart
I covet because of the heart
I am prideful because of the heart
I sloth because of the heart
I rage because of the heart
Because of the heart
I lust for everything about you

everything

2010-04-26T01:40:00.001+08:00

you are my everything

without you it's nothing

i want to give you everything

because i have nothing but only you

even i'm nothing

but i have everything when you are there

everything is not important

because nothing is more important than you

having you is nothing

but everything

having everything without you

is nothing

i spend my life here beside you in everything

because there is nothing left to be here on this earth today

there is nothing about you to be remembered

because i have everything about you in my mind

and from now starting from nothing

i will love you till everything from my heart

spills out

to exchange your love with mine together

everything is you and nothing is me without you

The warmth winter

2010-04-15T12:01:00.001+08:00

first love of that winter

we learnt about warmth

happiness and laughter

completion of a wonderful life

the summer later makes us tired

embracing excuses

gaps can be felt

to remember the memories are tough

we tend to bid farewell

we curious and learn how to fall for love

falling tears in the end

love is that easy

but happiness is a tough one

falling leaves from the tree of autumn

will only grow back when its spring

we curious and learn how to love

but we forget how to face it the end

carving the ice perfectly

eventually will melt and went missing

after the very autumn

awaiting for the next spring

yet again and again

The one I love

2010-04-09T14:10:00.000+08:00

I forget when it started

I don't know why I'm like this

A day seems so long and doesn't seem to have an end

How does another morning come? I don't know

I can't do anything while not doing anything

I look at the slow time

Where are you? What are you doing?

Because I only think of one person

I shouldn't be doing this, I know

I know that I can't love you

My confession will make you go through more pain

I know, I know

Even though I knew (I knew)

I can't do anything (can't)

I can only think of you

If I close my two eyes or open them again

I can only think of on eperson

The memory I can't erase for one second (even today)

I just think of you

I can't do anything while not doing anything

I look at the slow time

Where are you? What are you doing?

Because I only think of one person

Because I think of that one person

Taken from a sweet song of Super Junior K-R-Y

150th post... for the mother earth

2010-03-30T21:46:00.005+08:00

My 150th post will be honored to our mother earth.

You and me, are just a normal human being. We get to have the same meals, the same luxuries we are enjoying, a comfort home, sometimes the word " crying earth" won't cross to your mind. Of course, we are just a dust out of the 6billion people worldwide. But do you realise, our earth is actually dying ?

You have been bombarded by all those warnings. Not to kill wild animals, not to set open fire, not to waste water, etc. Years and years. The warnings are ringing still. But did the condition of the earth lessen? Im afraid i have to say it's no. Partly because, you know, we are the homo sapiens. Human. The most evil and scary creature ever created. Or should i say it's human heart, hidden beneath the fake shell.

Why? Because there is a word existed in every soul of humans. It's a basic attitude that a human just can't erase it away. Selfishness. Humans are all selfish. It depends on how u suppress the emotion down. It will eventually spill out a little, even at a condition you can never imagine it will. Hard to digest? Well, lets get back to mother earth.

Take a look at earth hour. An event that is dedicated for earth, where people and organisations around the world took part in this noble activity, playing their roles by switching off the unused lights. Yes. You read on the newspaper. Its successful. But remember. Newspapers are just reporting an angle of the whole story. What's hidden beneath is pathetic.

You may say this event is lacking of awareness. Partly some people won't get themselves exposed to media (newspaper,tv, radio etc). Well, you can't actually toss the blames to them. But how about the people living in the cities? Did all of them play a major parts in it? Sadly, i believe it's no.

True story. Its earth hour at 2010. I switched off, particularly the lights and my fans of my room. As I am staying in a hostel, pathway lights are switched off too ( of course I'm the one who switched it off) . Yup. Few numbers of people are quite supportive. They switched off theirs. But there are some moronic people out there who are not just didn't play their roles in it, but they switched on the pathway lights back, with insulting words, i repeat, insulting words.

Pathetic society. Yup. Its your rights. Your damn precious rights to have the lights on or off. But God damnit. It's just for one hour. That one hour in one year. Its so small, insignificant, least that can be done, but yet we failed miserably.

You can ignore the earth hour if you have done your part in saving the world. Such as conserving the energy, reuse papers and all the good deeds. But did you really commit yourself into it? If you feel guilty coz u r screwing the world that way, then reflect yourself and do something already to save the world.

Excuses. People do give excuses. Yup. I have urgent assignments need to be done, the meetings can't be done without lights, I hate darkness and the list continues. Come on. It's once in a year. Can't you slot a gap for the earth? Can't you make the time between 830 and 930pm to be free from silly stuffs? Can't you celebrate the hour just like how you anticipate your birthday?

In my own opinion, lights aren't enough. Others utensils need to be shut down as well. Don't forget. Everything in this world now is using electricity. Don't be fooled by the advertisements, on how the electric car can save the earth just simply because its fuel-free. Well, let me ask you. Electricity did not generate by its own. It's from fuel. In the end, we are still depending on fuel. So Buckle UP people.

Of course earth hour isn't enough. Do your part in everyday. I won't tell you what's to be done. For the age like you to be able to read this, you should be able to know your roles well.

So in the end, you are still breathing. The soil remains fresh. The water remains pure white. This is just an illusion that blocks your critical thinking for the future. Your children's children won't be seeing this. The earth is actually dying since the first day of of the earliest civilization. It's not 2012 that the world is going to end. It ends by our own hands.

I'm not an activist or a noble writer. Neither my writings are impressive or bullshits. It's just some articles about earth you have read somewhere , kinda similar to what i wrote here. And will you again, dump it aside, thinking "Oh, someone will do the job" ?

Lets hope this will be the last piece of writing that can make you awaken from a long long sleep.

By the way, if u have read my blog, its always full with poem and lyrics. Some of them i wrote on my own. Few are compiled and reposted. Lyrics are from famous songs. And here i will do the same. If you have listened to late MJ's songs, then this will be the best song to representative the emotion now. But don't just listen to it. Get the lyric. Its freaking meaningful.

Earth Song : Michael Jackson

What about sunrise

What about rain

What about all the things

That you said we were to gain.. .

What about killing fields

Is there a time

What about all the things

That you said was yours and mine...

Did you ever stop to notice

All the blood we've shed before

Did you ever stop to notice

The crying Earth the weeping shores?

What have we done to the world

Look what we've done

What about all the peace

That you pledge your only son...

What about flowering fields

Is there a time

What about all the dreams

That you said was yours and mine...

Did you ever stop to notice

All the children dead from war

Did you ever stop to notice

The crying Earth the weeping shores

I used to dream

I used to glance beyond the stars

Now I don't know where we are

Although I know we've drifted far

Hey, what about yesterday

What about the seas

The heavens are falling down

I can't even breathe

What about the bleeding Earth

Can't we feel its wounds

What about nature's worth

It's our planet's womb

What about animals

We've turned kingdoms to dust

What about elephants

Have we lost their trust

What about crying whales

We're ravaging the seas

What about forest trails

Burnt despite our pleas

What about the holy land

Torn apart by creed

What about the common man

Can't we set him free

What about children dying

Can't you hear them cry

Where did we go wrong

Someone tell me why

What about babies

What about the days

What about all their joy

What about the man

What about the crying man

What about Abraham

What about death again

Do we give a damn

Sorry sorry sorry

2010-03-26T01:40:00.002+08:00

well.. one of the famous songs ever appeared across Asia.. if u have listened to Kpop and SM entertainment songs, you might able to notice what song is this..

brought to you is the lyric.. kinda into their dancing and singing.. try to browse for their MV

CHORUS:
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
Sumi makhyeo makhyeo makhyeo
Naega michyeo michyeo baby

Baraboneun nunbit soge
Nunbit soge naneun machi
Naneun machi mwoe hollin nom (Ijen beoseonajido motae)
Georeooneun neoui moseup
Neoui moseup neoneun machi
Nae simjangeul barpgo wannabwa (Ijen beoseonajido motae)

Eodil gana dangdanghage
Utneun neoneun maeryeokjeok
Chakhan yeoja ilsaegiran
Saenggakdeureun bopyeonjeok
Dodohage geochim eopge
Jeongmal neoneun hwansangjeok
Dorikil su eobseulmankeum
Nege ppajyeo beoryeosseo

CHORUS:
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
Sumi makhyeo makhyeo makhyeo
Naega michyeo michyeo baby

Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttaranttan
Ttanttan ttanttada tta
Nege banhaebeoryeosseo baby
Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttaranttan
Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttarappappara

Hey girl gir gir gir gir gir girl I
Nunmantteumyeon ni saenggak (Hey girl)
Janakkaena sasil neo hana bakke anboyeo
(Malhaebwa) Ni mame naega
(Malhaebwa) Jari jabanneunji
(Malhaejwo) Naege malhaejwo
(Naneun babo babo babo)

Jubyeon saramdeureun malhae
Naega neomu jeokgeukjeok
I sesange geureon saram
Eodi handurinyago
Geugeol molla geunyeol molla
Sigihamyeo haneun mal
Naega bureopdamyeon geugeon
Geudaedeuri jineun geo

CHORUS:
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
Sumi makhyeo makhyeo makhyeo
Naega michyeo michyeo baby

Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttaranttan
Ttanttan ttanttada tta
Nege banhaebeoryeosseo baby
Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttararara
Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttarappappara

Let's dance dance dance dance
Let's dance dance dance dance
Let's dance dance dance dance
Dance dance

Hey ije geuman naege wajullae
Jeongmal michil geotman gata yeah
Nan neoman saranghago sipeo
Jeoldae dasi hannun pal saenggak eobseo hey, hey, hey

Aeiniragiboda chingugateun
Naega doego sipeo
Neoui modeun gomin seulpeum
Hamkke ganjikhagopa
Dasi eobseul mankeum mankeum
Neoreul neomu saranghae
Naega baran saram niga baro geu
That that that girl

CHORUS:
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
Sumi makhyeo makhyeo makhyeo
Naega michyeo michyeo baby

In english :

sorry sorry sorry sorry
i i i first fell fell fell for you you you, baby
shawty shawty shawty shawty
it's dazzling dazzling dazzling
it's breathtaking breathtaking breathtaking
i'm going crazy crazy baby

looking into your eyes, into your eyes
it's as if i'm, it's as if i'm tied to something
i can't escape now
the image of you, image of you walking to me
it's as if you stepped on my heart while coming
i can't escape now

wherever you go you're confident
the smiling you is charming
the thought that nice girls are beautiful is widely known
proudly, most definitely you're perfect
i've fallen for you so much that i can't turn back

sorry sorry sorry sorry
i i i first fell fell fell for you you you, baby
shawty shawty shawty shawty
it's dazzling dazzling dazzling
it's breathtaking breathtaking breathtaking
i'm going crazy crazy baby

ddan ddan ddan dda da dda ddalanddan
ddan ddan ddan dda da dda
nehgeh banhehbuhlyussuh baby
ddan ddan ddan dda da dda ddalanddan
ddan ddan ddan dda da ddala bbabbala

hey girl gir gir gir gir gir girl i
when i open my eyes i think of you, hey girl
whether i'm sleeping or awake, honestly, you're the only one i see
tell me, in your heart, do i
tell me, have a place
tell me, tell me
i'm a fool fool fool

the people around me tell me that i'm too blunt
these types of people aren't few in this world
they just say it out of envy without knowing or knowing that girl
if they're jealous of me, then it's them who lose

sorry sorry sorry sorry
i i i first fell fell fell for you you you, baby
shawty shawty shawty shawty
it's dazzling dazzling dazzling
it's breathtaking breathtaking breathtaking
i'm going crazy crazy baby

ddan ddan ddan dda da dda ddalanddan
ddan ddan ddan dda da dda
nehgeh banhehbuhlyussuh baby
ddan ddan ddan dda da dda ddalanddan
ddan ddan ddan dda da ddala bbabbala

let's dance dance dance dance
let's dance dance dance dance
let's dance dance dance dance
dance dance

hey, now stop and please come to me
i really feel like i'm going to go crazy, yeah
i want to love only you
i won't ever look at another girl, hey

rather than a lover, i want to be someone more like a friend
i want to put away all your worries and sadness
i love you so much so much that i wont' ever love again
the one that i want, you're just that
that that that girl

sorry sorry sorry sorry
i i i first fell fell fell for you you you, baby
shawty shawty shawty shawty
it's dazzling dazzling dazzling
it's breathtaking breathtaking breathtaking
i'm going crazy crazy baby

redit: crazykyootie@soompi + batwook@forsujuindo

Not that easy

2010-03-26T01:35:00.002+08:00

It’s not that simple, to find

A companion to converse with

Especially

After you have seen so much betrayal

Feeling insecure

Just have to be brave enough

to whom Who killed my romance

It’s not that simple

To be able to love

and not looking at others

Become more practical

Maybe it’s good, maybe it’s bad,

Don’t like loneliness, yet after a while, it becomes a habit

Don’t need to worry about anyone,

Not controlled by anyone

When I feel happy, therefore very busy

When I feel tired, just let go of ownself

What others say, I’ll just simply listen

I’ll make my own decision

Don’t want to be too emotional

A cup of red wine and a movie

On a weekend starry night, turn off your handphone,

Relax comfortably on the sofa

To love each other, is not that simple

Each one have his/her own temper

After the age of daydreaming

Instead of noise, why not just have peace

It’s not that simple to have happiness

to make a person fascinated

the age when we don’t know anything

was formerly the most touching, that’s why it’s was the happiest time

that was before

Translation from a song ... super meaningful lyric... the song title 黃小琥 Huang Xiao Hu-沒那麼簡單 / Mei Na Me Jian Dan

credits to the blog http://top10pinyinlyrics.blogspot.com/2010/01/huang-xiao-hu-mei-na-me-jian-dan.html

wishes in a nite

2010-03-18T16:09:00.001+08:00

out of the gloomy door

here i am

standing on soft soil

feel the breeze that touch my lips

try to trap it with my bare hands

the windy starry nite

a nite to be remembered

clouds dissembled itself beneath the dark

making ways for stars to shine

for the moon to glow

the moment of glimpse

brought indefinite words in my heart

as i walk a smaller step

timid as i always

wondering the limit of the sky

guessing and gasping the air at the same time

i am truly blessed

to live another day to see

another beautiful starry nite

simple love

2010-03-17T16:16:00.001+08:00

the very night
we met each other
in front of crowded place filled with fireworks
the other winter night
i walked alone,
i have nothing with me
opening my pair of palms
i can feel it's snowy
in despair
i wish to fly in front of your window
and meet you again

i just want it to be simple
in loving you
i am still myself
let it be simple
in missing me
i won't let it blown away by the wind
and be simple
in embracing me
it will be everlasting in my dreams
though you are not here
the story will be continued
in the night of my loneliness

everyday i love you

2010-03-16T21:06:00.001+08:00

i don't know but i believe
that's something are meant to be
and that you make a better me
everyday i love you
i never thought that dreams came true
but you showed me that they do
you know that i have something knew
everyday i love you

Coz i believe
The person has to be you
It's out of far of our control
And you never live
Until you love
With all your heart and soul

It's a touch when i feel bad
It's a smile when i get mad
Thanks for everything you gave
Everyday i love you

If i ask would you say yes
together we are the very best
i know that i am truly blessed
now i will give you my best
everyday i love

Happy birthday

2010-03-15T23:31:00.002+08:00

happy birthday,
i wish to myself,
candles are lighted, coldness have been warmth out
happy birthday,
the tears already dried,
i want to thank you,
for what have you taken away,
still loving you, spiced with hatred,
time is still much to make up,
the scar might not be visible though,
wish myself,
a happy birthday

guess you know what song is this. i translated the main chorus for you guys.. hope its alrite after all..

nah.. too lazy to write blog d nwadys... haha

Super Date

2010-03-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

You don't have to take her to Paris or Tokyo

You just have to make her understand

What she means to you

On your super date

Troubles of the world will simply have to wait

For wonders and amazement to be served on her silver plate

Hurry up now don't be late

Coz hand in hand you will find your lap where paradise awaits

And then boom!

Fireworks showed in the skyline

You kiss her

And that's your super date

Konayuki - Powdered-Snow

2010-02-19T00:21:00.001+08:00

Konayuki mau kisetsu wa itsumo sure chigai
Hitogomi ni magirete mo onaji sora miteru no ni
Kaze ni fukarete nita you ni kogoeru no ni

Boku wa kimi no subete nado shitte wa inai darou
Soredemo ichi oku nin kara kimi wo mitsuketa yo
Konkyo wa naikedo honki de omotterunda

Sasaina ii aimo nakute
Onaji jikan wo ikite nado ike nai
Sunao ni nare nai nara
Yorokobi mo kanashimi mo munashii dake

Konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
Futari no kodoku wo wake au koto ga dekita no kai

Boku wa kimi no kokoro ni mimi wo oshi atete
Sono koe no suru hou he sutto fukaku made
Orite yukitai soko de mou ichi do aou

Wakari aitai nante
Uwabe wo nadete itano wa boku no hou
Kimi no kajikanda te mo nigirishimeru
Koto dakede tsunagatteta no ni

Konayuki nee eien wo mae ni amari ni moroku
Zara tsuku ASUFARUTO no ue shimi ni natte yuku yo

Konayuki nee toki ni tayori naku kokoro wa yureru
Soredemo boku wa kimi no koto mamori tsuduketai

Konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
Futari no kodoku wo tsutsunde sora ni kaesu kara

English translation :

powdered-snow, within the revolving seasons
we always miss each other
although we got separated within the crowd,
we look into the same sky

blown in the wind,
we feel the same chills
everything about you,
guess I don’t really know
even so, from one hundred million
I still found you

although i’m not really sure,
i’m seriously thinking about it
if slight quarrels may lose our laughters
then we must not live in the same moment of time
if we can’t be honest to each other
happiness and sadness are just empty

powdered-snow, until our hearts become white-dyed
let us meet so that we can share our loneliness
i want to put my ears into your heart
to hear the voice that gently leads into the depth
i want to go descend, and let us meet once again then

although I say that I want to understand,
but I can only stroke the surface of my words
even your hands that have become cold,
only by holding them tightly, we were connected

powdered-snow, even too fragile before the eternity
fell and became stain upon the rough asphalt

powdered-snow, in such time unreliable, shaking my heart
even so, I want to keep on protecting you…

powdered-snow, until our hearts become white-dyed
wrap up our loneliness, return it to the sky…

=p credited to the song "Konayuki" of One Litre of Tears.

The very evening

2010-02-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

Do you still remember that day

That very evening day

The wind that blew past in a blink of eye

Seems to swept everything around

Only left loneliness behind

Now that the wind is still pursuing as before

The rain follows

The heat in the heart did not retreat

As if I continue closing my eyes

The familiar face

Appears again in front of my eyes

The blue shady evening

Suddenly changed into

A sunny summer day

The warmth in the air

Is not too far away

It seems like winter now

I wanna stay here with you

The green yearning

Waved at me and said that the four seasons are unchangeable

But all the moments in that season

Now comes back into the past again

That summer day that the wind blew past

The Journey

2010-02-04T21:34:00.001+08:00

It's already far

the thigh of mine is already sour

neither of us

will know when we will reach

but why not now

we stop and rest

while we are resting

we forget why is the aim to continue the journey

the rain stops

the sky is bright again

but we are still pondering

the journey of this love

is bringing us nowhere

It's a rule

for human to appreciate after we lost it

just like returning to the same point

after me and you

running blindly in a huge circle

Sonnet L

2010-01-14T00:38:00.001+08:00

I'm an ordinary person

Need no to be introduced

But I am willing to give you the warmth silently

Carving a smile in your face quietly

But who am i?

The flapping butterfly won't even look at me

The flying bird would laugh at my foolishness

Actually everyone does know

I'm not the special one for you

Seeing a blossom rose

Is a the greatest thing for me

but if the rose forgets about me

Hopefully wheN i wilted

You would notice my importance

The road of happiness

2010-01-11T17:36:00.000+08:00

Forget about the flower that you planted.

Embark a new journey, and

give up you dream.

When something can be built,

one should accept

that it can fall apart someday.

In reality, there isn't a kind of peace and happiness

which always stays the same.

Like this district,

it was once well-suited to the name:

"Happiest of the world".

However, in a blink of an eye,

the apartments of the whole street

are being populated with crows.

The good days do not always stay

One cannot always climb upwards on a ladder

Can't the loved one last life-long?

Probably we don't have to be afraid.

Forget the one you used to love,

he whose name printed in gold on the old wedding invitation.

The wall on which the wedding photo is mounted

and all good old days

are all dismantled tomorrow.

Forget the home you used to have.

The table, the sofa, the fridge and the two cups of black tea.

Is the borrowed scene with warmth and fragrance due to return

before the next generation comes?

Forget the sand (with which) you used to build.

The castle of memory has collapsed in a flash.

Facing this

hump of deserted sand,

you have to learn to let go.

With affection, can it last life-long?

Does it help even if you regret?

Don't worry, the time will come.

Please let go of the key in your hand

Extracted from a song...

Exam is around the corner...

2009-11-08T13:30:00.004+08:00

Hey guys....

My last two posts were song lyrics of a great two sad love songs... do ask me the link if you guys wana hear the songs..

For your guys information, my final examination will be blasted off this coming Thursday... After 22nd of Nov, it will be my independence day and new long holiday break will begin !!! ^^

haha.. so this post might be the last post for upcoming few weeks

For ALL my UTP frens, i wish u gud luck and take care for your final exam.. don't suffer but enjoy from it... For someone, may God bless you as always... hope you will be happy and healthy

I have to offline liao in order to studi.. take care everyone till now..

tata

方炯镔坏人

2009-11-08T13:30:00.001+08:00

方炯镔 - 坏人
作词:马嵩惟作曲:方炯镔编曲:杨阳
专辑:好人?!Abin
@ 制作
51家族带给您不同的感觉
music......
那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人
[01:27.84]
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
[01:48.19]
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

朱浩仁 - 小流星

2009-11-08T13:27:00.000+08:00

朱浩仁 - 小流星
词曲:朱浩仁

海水荡荡我一个人坐在船上

甜蜜的幻想温柔月亮挂在天上

疲惫的衣架用心守护爱的衣裳

随风飘扬不会流浪

因为爱你我才不会跟风唠叨

孤独的月亮看穿了我爱的心房

思念的冰箱里装满着我爱的希望

希望有一天你就在我身旁

你是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

暖暖的甜蜜甜进我的心

哦你是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

因为你不再逃避

你就是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

颜色的奇迹照亮了天气

你就是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

要你用力跳进我怀抱里

海水荡荡我一个人坐在船上

甜蜜的幻想温柔月亮挂在天上

思念的冰箱装满着我爱的希望

希望有一天你就在我身旁

你是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

暖暖的甜蜜甜进我的心

哦你是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

因为你不再逃避

你就是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

颜色的奇迹照亮了天气

你就是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

要你用力跳进我怀抱里

你就是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

颜色的奇迹照亮了天气

你就是我的

Baby Baby Baby 小流星

因为你不再逃避

你就是我的

唯一爱的Baby小流星

如果没了你我怎么活下去

为了你我会全心全意爱你小流星

要你用力跳进我怀抱里

Beneath the cherry blossoms

2009-11-06T00:22:00.001+08:00

As joy dances away, spring becomes the wings of my tears
They turn to fluttering flowers petal, meant only for you
Whenever you feel the wind's blowing, I am with you

Protecting you, as you live and breathe
is more important than any sadness than loneliness
if we are reborn someday, we'll meet beneath the cherry blossoms
and when we do, I swear we'll smile and laugh forever

I'll protect my memories of how I loved and was loved
My gaze won't fade, and I'll wish everyday from the bottom of my heart
that we, that we, that we
will be together again

This is IT... MJ simply the best

2009-11-05T17:02:00.002+08:00

Hi there....

yes! yes! i know its been awhile since i ve written to all of you...

neway i hope u all have catch the movie of our late 'King of Pop'...

oh yea "This Is It"....

for those who hv not please make sure u watch it....

well it was something to look for after almost a decade not hearing from MJ and finally when he made a come back which never came true...

Well, to me the movie brought back memories and it did put a smile on my face....

in this movie it show how MJ took charge of things and he is d man on stage.... and u do wat he wans u to do... tats rite!!!!....

Please people do watch this movie and am sure u loved it....

Its not something to shout bout but it is for sure something for u to always hv the memory of him in you...

MJ you be loved forever...

So dont mis da movie....

Go and go rite now!....

2012..myth or truth?

2009-11-05T02:14:00.002+08:00

2012, Hollywood's latest blockbuster, will be screened worldwide this month.

I watched the online trailer: The iceberg melting at unprecedented rates, floods ravaging dry lands, the Earth's crust tumbling and falling apart, cities reduced to a rubble, tsunamis lashing wildly on the land and the entire planet submerged in water.

This is a foretaste of Doomsday. The year is 2012.

Wow! the world will see its doom in three years' time! Isn't it a little too early?

Some people are planning to get married three years later, some preparing to make a fortune, some conceiving to take over the government by then, while some gearing up to host the Olympics that year...

If the world is to be reduced to ashes in three years' time, then no one should come out with any more ideas or plan to do anything.

But why is it in 2012?

The movie has an explanation.

According to the Mayan predictions, the Earth has a lifespan of five solar eras, and we are now in the fifth solar era!

The fifth solar era began in Year 3113 in the Mayan calendar, and will end after the 5125-year Mayan cycle.

The sun will then vanish, and our planet will experience earth-moving changes that will see it through its demise.

This terminal date is equivalent to the 22nd of December 2012 in our calendar.

Coincidentally, the Tang Dynasty prediction in ancient China also foretold that the Earth would undergo a complete makeover, which could be interpreted as the end of the existing world, in the Year of Dragon (2012).

Call that coincidence or sheer superstition, but NASA satellite data have shown that the oceanic ice in the Arctic Circle this summer is only half its coverage four years back.

A NASA scientist has said, "At this speed, the Arctic Ocean will be totally depleted of ice at the end of 2012 summer."

As a matter of fact, we have a good deal of books and movies plotting around the 2012 Doomsday prediction; but in the past, we didn't see so many natural disasters as we do now, and such predictions and stories therefore hardly raised a brow in this world back then.

However, we have a fair share of earthquakes, tsunamis, hurricanes, sand storms and droughts in recent months, and this has triggered widespread alarm among people who are not typically bothered about environment preservation.

Be it three years, 30 years, or 300 years. If we keep consuming our Earth this way, we will send our planet to its end sooner or later.

I don't care whether you believe in 2012, but my personal prediction is that: 2012 is going to sell like nobody's business.

http://www.mysinchew.com/node/29902

(By TAY TIAN YAN/Translated by DOMINIC LOH/Sin Chew Daily)

the best article so far about 2012 that i read before.. hope 2012 will be a good good year

Autumn in Christmas

2009-11-04T10:26:00.000+08:00

the sky is bright

filled by the lights

and fireworks

the trees is covered with snows

across the street

the joker is jumping around here and there

carving smiles on every faces

but i can't just

stop my tears flowing

causing the wet snow on the ground

melting away with my sadness

the winter might be cold

i still remember

the warmth you gave me

through you hugs

but it remains as an knife

that pierces through my heart

the winter is gone

the love is long dried

the leaves are slowly wiltering to the ground

it's is an autumn

in my heart

evaporating all the joyful moments together

the last present from you

was only a tear dropping sentence

and your face

is not that sad at all

the autumn should be over by now

the blurred shadow of yours

i suffered

i endured

and i realise

the next christmas

the snow would be better

This is it.... I'M back

2009-11-04T10:15:00.001+08:00

Hey guys... Nice to see u all here again. It has been a long long long time since I last updated my blog... Approximately about 2 months I have been inactive. Tears have been dropped all this while to wait for my post XD... haha..

Ok.. Let me just summarize what had happened in the time duration when i was away from this blog.. Around the month of August till October...

The month of August

Is kinda a big month for me as we are preparing for hosting the second book fair in Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS (UTP) by a club called ELC (English Language Club). Addition to it, we have our second test week on that particular month. Therefore, it is inconvenient for me to divide my daytime for my blogtime.

HINI of course is one of the deadly diseases ever recorded so far on the surface of the Earth. UTP in return recorded almost 140 cases of people suffering from high fever, causing the campus to be shut for almost a week. Ok. I had to pack my stuffs back to my home, only to know that im in high fever too.

I went to the clinic and after getting the medical consultation, i realised after eating their pills, my condition worsen day by day. =.=ll

Then its time to come to UTP liao. Realised everyone have to go through a temperature check up before entering UTP compound, I ate one strong medicine to pass the test, able to reduce my temp drastically. But i can't help when my fever is getting worse. Need to go back home to seek for a new remedy. Luckily, Im fully cured before getting back to study in UTP.

It's book fair time! To be a part of the book fair had been a great time for me as this semester book fair does grew bigger, larger and more hotter than before. Luckily i didn't disappoint the board though some of the publishers that our dept got have been slacking throughout the fair.
Good thing we enjoyed our pizza moment at the appreciation dinner!

The month of September

Hey. Moving on the month of September. Basically a dull month with nothing much big things around the time. Continue to revise for my test 2 as it was a tough tough month after all. Realised i was far behind the track in chasing the glory of dean's list, I have to add somemore oil then. XD

Selamat Hari Raya!

Its time to celebrate HARI RAYA... and of course our semester break. It marks the end of test season and time to enjoy though. Everyone went for their trip around Malaysia but i had to choose to stay at home, rusted to 'boringness' . haha

I didn't really go out lepak much as during the semester break, i spent most of the time with my family. I put my time on the internet as well. As usual, when there is a holiday, I will suffer headache throughout the holiday in order to please and to solve someone's problem as well.

I came back early to UTP, which is so GOOD that I enjoyed it to the fullest. Gathered in a gang of five, consisting of John, CK, Yeo, me and DG. We rocked the world by playing badminton together, eat together, have fun together, and of course, as early as 6am driving all the way to Ipoh to have dimsum as our breakfast ^^.. cool.

As the curtains came down to close the month of September, I found out that life can be sweet and sour sometimes. AND IT IS OCTOBER!!!!!

The month OF OCTOBER!

what so great about the month of October?

it will be the longest summary i will write for a month in this post. It will be the anticipated month throughout my whole semester. And of course, lots of people celebrating their birthday in this month including ME !!!

Lets get started with the early days of the month. Assignments yet assignments. Quizzes are back to haunt people. And tests are still alive after all. While busy preparing for all of nightmares, I was handed the responsibility to host a birthday party for someone at 10/10/09. It was kinda heavy, but i managed to get some helps all around, including some good friends to gather around to celebrate for that person. I was quite satisfied and amazed in the end that it was a success after all.

It was the Talent Search Audition period at the same week too. Im enrolling myself in such event again, but this time not as a participant, but as a committee. HAHA ^^ .. I was in the Welfare Dept, and it was cool. To ensure the judges get their food, I was able to go to another forbidden place in UTP, which was the GUEST ROOM!!! it was a total high class place for guests in UTP to stay. WAKAKA. Then after getting my job done, I went to Ipoh with a friend to visit Ipoh Parade, and to play around! It was a thrilling, exciting, swt trip after all..

Back to the middle of October, it was the period to sell the Talent Search tickets away. I sold privately around 21 tickets in total. Sorry if I had offended some losers throughout the process.. =p... it was a hectic week as I have to pull over myself to finish up the assignments. And of course the heat in dealing with the matters of my UTP Book Expo.

I have to announce that our Book Expo is confirmed on July 2010!! ^^

Back to home. I have to search for sample trophies and flowers for the talent search thingy. Later on, my parents treated me a big lunch for my upcoming BIRTHDAY!! THANKS dad and mom! I ate too many cakes la! haha..

Ya. Dat's rite. It was the friday 23rd of OCT 09. Talent Search FINALE. The show was finally in the town after days of rehearsing, months of opening booths, and hours of last minute jobs. Finally, on 6pm, I arrived chancellor hall, taking the spagehetti to the greenroom, to feed the committees all around, including the medtech fellows. Then, my department basically deal with all the VIP foods, including in the VIP room. I personally have to present the cake to the rector, out guest of honor, as IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY on coming 25th, the same date as mine! ^^ . I did suffered from stage fright. Later, on trophy presentation, it was my last job before we start our cleaning ceremony, mostly on the leftovers, rubbishs, and we have to wash the trays and plates at blok1 for our whole department before leaving the place. It was a great night to be remembered after all. Sweet. and one of my greatest event after all.

AND 25TH OF OCT is here. Before ticking to 12am of the day, I wasn't much surprised to see a birthday party for me.. XD.. But thanks to all the friends that gathered around and sang happy birthday to me. I appreciated all of your wishes down in my heart. Thanks to the few organisers who skippeed their EDX post mortem just for me. The big organiser was after all the one who i organised for last time. Thanks to you too in return.

It was kinda okok day for me. Though my birthday falls on a stupid day as tomorrow of the day will be a test day, it was quite fun too. We were having postmortem for talentsearch at the noon. I ate KFC as part of the treat as well. Thanks to everyone again. Just another simple simple night after all to be remembered.. HEHE

Towards the end of October, we managed to finish all the assignments and few tests, I clarified most of the stuffs before the month of October hits the end. The eng drawing assignment took my whole rest day off in doing it.

THough some of it I didn't manage to contribute much, thanks to all of u in doin it precisely.

It was 30th of October 2009. Happy birthday to David Wong, my table mate back to school time. It was a day for my lab test and also the day when i began to pack for my GEOLOGY FIELD Trip. It was not so a tearful goodbye after all as we are leaving for 4 days and 3 nights to Kelantan AND Terengganu to research on some rocks !!

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And the end of october 09 was after all the best time ever in my whole year in UTP so far. It marks my comeback to the blogging world and that's all that i can summarized so far for the three big months that I missed out.

My 130th post so far but More than come and till now, take care everyone!

RACUTP DISASTER RELIEF PROJECT

2009-10-29T00:14:00.002+08:00

do come and donate your old stuffs to the box available at each village cafes... thanks

Top 5 Reasons It Sucks to Be an Engineering Student

2009-10-29T00:10:00.004+08:00

For many students, earning a degree in engineering is less than enjoyable and far from what they expected. Here are our biggest complaints about the educational rite of passage. Of course, they are sweeping generalizations. Feel free to disagree.

5. Awful Textbooks

Thick, dry, black and white manuscripts are rarely a source of inspiration and sometimes can cause loads of confusion. Often, the text is poorly written and interrupted by lengthy equations with symbols that are different from those used by the professor during lectures.

4. Professors are Rarely Encouraging

During each class, a professor that would rather be tending to his research will waltz up to a blackboard or overhead projector and scribble out equations for an hour without uttering a single sentence to create some excitement.

3. Dearth of Quality Counseling

College students may not have a sense for how to build their resume and they might be clueless about the variety of career opportunities that await them. Unfortunately, some academic advisers do little more than post fliers about internships and hand out a checklist of classes to take. They should make some projections about the future job market, learn about the interests of each young scholar, and offer them tailored advice for how to best prepare themselves.

2. Other Disciplines Have Inflated Grades

Brilliant engineering students may earn surprisingly low grades while slackers in other departments score straight As for writing book reports and throwing together papers about their favorite zombie films.

Some professors view undergraduate education as a type of natural selection, but their analogy is flawed. Many of the brightest students may struggle while mediocre scholars can earn top scores because they have a larger group of supportive friends to or more time to dedicate to studying.

1. Every Assignment Feels the Same

Nearly every homework assignment and test question is a math problem. Only a few courses require creativity or offer hands-on experience.

fully quoted from http://www.wired.com/wiredscience/2008/03/top-5-reasons-i/

enjoy dear UTPians....

Sonnet Forever

2009-08-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

Sometimes at night
When I look up to the sky
I start to think of you
And then ask myself why
Why do I love you?
I think and smile
Because I know the list could run on for miles

The whisper of your voice
The warmth of your touch
My feelings are so strong
And I love you so much
Why do I love you?
I think and smile
Because I know the list could run on for miles

Always and forever

The CraShing!!!

2009-07-23T00:55:00.005+08:00

bLINGGG........ that was the sound i heard in my room few minutes later at night while i was sitting at my chair typing on my laptop. It was a loud and long crash that lasted few seconds. I thought something had just fell down from the top floor or just a whole set of windows falling down somewhere outside.

I quickly grabbed the door knob and in a flash, pieces of tinted glasses were shattered on the floor. Oh it was super weird because the broken pieces were from a sliding door. Unfortunately, it was not a ball or not anything hard that broke the sliding door but it was a human who pushed it down.
Well, i duno how and why he can pushed the sliding door down to the floor and sustained those injuries on the face.

He must have mistaken the door as if it was invisible after all. No further victims confirmed and the guard arrived few mins later.

The event took place in Village 2a, UTP at 1245am.

RESULT ARE OUT! DEAR UTP STUDENTS!

2009-07-11T11:17:00.002+08:00

Dear all. check your results by signing into your prism account everyone!!!!!!! or simply just visit our UTP website to get to your result!!!!!!!

Good luck everyone!!!!

Pre-result has been released!!!

2009-07-10T21:50:00.001+08:00

For those who want to know about their result, you have to wait for few more days as it would be released officially at UTP Website on 15-17th July. It has been rumored that it will be released tomorrow initially at 12pm tomorrow.

http://www.petronas.com.my/sms/SMSExam.nsf/3806e5c7cd15295248256985001419cd?OpenForm&Seq=27

By the way, click this link to check out your ranking in your respective engineering throughout your foundation studies. Download the pdf file .

http://utpianzeo.ning.com/events/list-of-supplements-students

2009-07-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

Walking along the busy streets
You don't hold my hand anymore
I carefully hold your little finger
Tears fall gently down
You've been hiding some things from me
But in the end, you still had to say them
An emotionless "We can still be friends"
Your tears are like a cutting knife
I know after separation, you're not sad
You're happier than before
How do you expect me to say words of congratulation to you?
Did our past happiness fade in colour
I'd like to ask you how you can bare to let it go
Don't tell me anymore that you still miss me
You've been hiding some things from me
But in the end, you still had to say them
I carefully hold your little finger
You don't hold my hand anymore

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

UTP Book Fair!!!

2009-07-04T23:18:00.004+08:00

Hey hey!!

Good to inform you guys that UTP (Universiti Teknologi Petronas) will have their 2nd book fair coming around this August.

So bloggers! If you are a member to any publishing companies, please do inform your company that our event needs you and your company to set up a booth in our event! Terms and regulations can be discussed further...

Dear UTPians, do come and support us ya!

Thanks!

Love Chord II

2009-07-03T22:18:00.001+08:00

i am nothing
only abit noisy and clumsy
if you feel lonely
i can accompany you
being complained by you
it is not a big matter
as long as you will smile

i have a lot of problems
only to be hidden in front of you
if i sad
you are the only antitode
loving a person
must ensure him/her to trust
that his/her world is wonderful

truly
you love me like a flowing water
bring me to endless flow
happiness
i can wipe it away
only to make you happy
i will forget all my tiredness

whatever reactions you want
i will give
i can climb a mountain high
to save back your lost tears

My japanese name

2009-07-03T22:17:00.001+08:00

Hey guys.. got it from one of my emails. Takamei rinkitoji nakikato. Ya dat's rite.. That's my japanese name. haha feel free to call..

Memorable week in STE (part III)

2009-07-02T23:25:00.004+08:00

Last DAY

It was the last day. In the class, we had our final module, which was to remember our parents' deeds and importance of them in our life. Then final bocoboco dance. Then it was the final sharing between all our classmates. We made some remarks and goodbye tears to our
classmates. And of course, phototaking session! I really honored to have Mr. jALIL and Pn. Ghazinah as they both made a perfect facilitators for our class. Salute them! We bidded our final farewell to them! of couz! We unwrapped the egg! hahaha

Family photo!

Ok night time is fun time. It was a feast time. We began our party with a performance of blowing fire out from mouth. I hope you should know what i'm trying to say^^ . Then we lined up to get our food! It was a bowl of noodles with lots lots of ingredients like crab, prawn etc dipped with laksa soup. We had roasted goat's meat too(i'm not sure). Then it's party time. We had our STE final on stage which the champion went to our class! Reps were Denson and SengYee. Finally the party ended with performance by all the facis and all of us danced together for the
Bocoboco. Then we had the karaoke session.

the night party!!

For me, I enjoyed with my friends, singing on the stage, then back to another group to play cards, and off to the bed at 1am!

The following day, which was on Saturday, we packed all of our things and finally we had our breakfast before boarding the bus back to KLCC
sO LONG AGROTEK! HAHA

friendly waiters and waitresses around the cafe...

We reached KLCC at around 1030 and i walked down to LRT station to board a train to pudu raya and my destination began!

haha so dat's the end of my STE journey. I hope some of you who are UTPians too may share the same joy and wonderfull memories as what i had too..
Till the next time,

Sayonara!~