Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Post Mortem

She laughed so hard,
On silly jokes,
Sometimes tears would come to her eyes.

She's easily moved emotionally,
On cute happy things,
That I could feel her tears last long till the end of the day.

I never understood,
How someone spent her time,
Brighten other people's day,
Could hate herself so much,
But she did quite passionately.

The only person I ever heard say a single bad thing about her, was her,
So I tried to protect her,
To get her see what I saw,
That she was lovely, she was amazing,
And utterly intimidating.

And I don't wish for more. Really.

You have to do that for the people you love right? Let them fight their own battles, even if being helpless breaks your heart into two.

Valentines' Day 2018

Sunday, February 4, 2018


My phone rings a text message
I wish it is from you
I glance and peep
And it isn't

My phone rings again
It has to be from you
I glance and peep
Still, it isn't


My phone rings

I swear I tried to lift my fingers, but I couldn't. Is it now I'm going to die? The text messages, I know it is from her. Forget the texts. I have to call her. Now or never. But shit, I'm dying.

Lalaland, Bintulu

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

I'm a sailor, you're my ship

I'm a sailor,
Lost in world of sea in search for seven wonders,
With dreams as the sole fortitude.

You're my ship,
My fortress, my house, my soul,
Whenever I need you, wherever you lead me to,
I always know, it is the right path.


Monday, January 29, 2018


Have I told you,
The morning of today,
I have missed you the day before,
And though we're near,
My heart aches of wanting more.

Then you leave for hours,
And my heart longs for you,
I swear the clock is making fun of me,
As every tick of seconds, it reminds me of you,
Yet till now, good night is all I can say.

As day goes by, I realize,
I don't fear of waiting,
For my love to come true,
What I fear the most,
The day you cease to exist

Ritz-Carlton 0511

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Audrey Hepburn

Pardon me, Miss Audrey
To start this with sloppy words
I find it unyielding, to write about you
As we have known, as little as hundred minutes
Fret not, I have a better way
To quote your poem is all I can do
Indebtedness to you is all I have

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness..
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.


"I couldn't make it to be there next week"
Yes, you said it loud and clear
I pretend I couldn't care less
Yet, I put out my long face
As I crawl, to my imaginary air castle

Slowly, I scrap away the delusive thought
Of sitting next to you, inside the plane


Monday, January 15, 2018

Clock of Emotions

If time could tell emotions,
It would be a queue,
To a rollercoaster train.

I had my ride today, and here is how I fare:

Six to seven
It was a typical Monday
Seven to eight
Lights blacked out, I thought of her
Eight to nine
I made her mad, I fell to despair
Nine to half past ten
We met each other
I wished time would pause
As jubilation in rhapsody
Then she bid farewell
And I was in dismay

Eleven to midnight
The heart wanders
Into sleepless night
All over again


Sunday, January 14, 2018

Snooze and snore

"Night night, sweet dreams"
With a text to her
I put my jammie on
I pull my blanket up

"Dream of me, will you"
I whisper to the air
Snooze and snore
There she is, in my dream


Thursday, November 23, 2017


Awaken at night
I glance at the window
Dark clouds everywhere
And thunder one could hear

A drop of water rolls down my cheek
Where are they from?
I wipe, and a little stream forms
I am weak after all

Dewdrops on windows, drop by drop
I tell myself, it's going to be fine
Close your eyes
And the rain will be over soon

What should I do?
The rain becomes heavier
And my heart aches more

What can I do?
I look around, all I see is you
I can no longer hold it in


Sunday, November 19, 2017

My Imagination

I want the fall
To be the way I want
I wish the gingko leaves to be half-red
And half-yellow
I wish the maple leaves to be half-red
And half-sky blue
I desire the fields to have
The colours of the rainbow
And flying dragonflies
To be green, blue, and yellow
And frogs are croaking
With big eyes
Sing by the pond
On a rainy first day of fall

Still, I'm left with a broken heart
For what I want, wish, desire
Remains true
In my imagination

Borrowed, 637pm

Friday, November 10, 2017

The Boy/The Girl

The boy,

          He thought he knows the world
          That he is not afraid to sleep alone
          For problems he drowns with alcohol
          And bruises mend with smiles

The girl,

         Appears abruptly
         Four feet tall, she moves the world
         Though clumsy, with shaky hands
         She cruises through, strong and bold

Yet just another day, he speaks to himself,
No heavens amaze him, no dreams too great to fight,
Yet that day, he knows he is done for,
For his senses and soul, lost to the scent of that one cologne

And that's the day the boy meets the girl.

Written 1147
Paragon Bintulu